Losing Someone You Love

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October 17, 2020

Sometimes

You don’t want to go to sleep and you don’t want to be awake.

You don’t want to think about it anymore but you cannot look away.

It hurts to remember but you don’t want to forget.

You know they’re not here but you can’t figure out how they can be gone.

You search and search and search, knowing you won’t be able to find.

You ask questions even though the answers don’t really matter.

You squeeze your eyes shut tight but it only makes you see again.

You can be here now for whatever and whoever needs you in this moment, yet all the while your spirit is still out searching, your body is aching and your mind has slowed down time...

As if it’s all finally working together to show you

This life is a paradox

All we have is this very moment

That’s already slipping through our fingers

You can try to hold on

Judge, worry, fight, defend, chase, turn away — which you will.

Only to one day realize

That was all a waste of time.

in the end the only thing that will last

Is love.